20 November 2021

amalfi way

bright, clean and welcoming 

a simple house on amalfi way

it knows the delicate feeling of happiness

it knows the bitterness of betrayal

it knows the cheer of a christmas morning

it had many lives move through its bones

how long did it watch over me

can it remember what i can? 

the innocence of learning “please” and “thank you”

the sound of training wheels and lawnmowers

shrieks of laughter coming from the trampoline

a small hand gripping a bouquet of orange cosmos

loquats hanging on low branches like drops of gold

lost lunch boxes and scraped knees

forgotten toys and spilled nail polish

climbing up to my pine tower above the world

where i could see the kingdom of roof tops

my kingdom of roof tops, my city of trees

until i got too big to slip in between the branches

until i got too big to ask “why” and say “no”

until i got too big to be scared of the dark

now some new, happy, wholesome family

has painted my green front door to black 

and the driveway that used to be my canvas

boasts a new artist’s colorful work

do they know that was once my garden? 

do they know the love that grew the lavender? 

do they know the hands that painted the walls?

even so, how could they not want to stay

in that bright, clean and welcoming

simple house on amalfi way?


19 November 2021

恋しい

everyone describes nostalgia as a soft, warm, yearning feeling of missing something/someone. the older i get, the more nostalgia seems to be a cruel reminder rather than a bouquet of fond memories.     

now it’s all just a bundle of moments fogged by time. dated and filed away - lost and unreachable. 

blurry neon lights, the smell of the ocean, pulsing music, beer bottles and empty glasses, voices getting lost in the cigarette smoke and i can hardly see it anymore. 

will i ever get to go back? 

will i ever feel like that again?